If I Can't Have you

If I Can't Have You by Charlotte Levin is an all-consuming novel about loneliness, obsession and how far we go for the ones we love.

My name is Constance Little.

This is my love story.

But this isn’t the way it was supposed to end.

After fleeing Manchester for London, Constance attempts to put past tragedies behind her and make a fresh start. When she embarks on a relationship with the new doctor at the medical practice where she works, she’s convinced she’s finally found the love and security she craves.

Then he ends it.

But if life has taught her anything, it’s that if you love someone, you should never let them go.

That's why for Constance Little, her obsession is only just beginning . . .

About the author

Charlotte Levin has been shortlisted for the Andrea Badenoch Award, part of the New Writers North Awards, and for the Mslexia Short Story Competition. Charlotte lives in Manchester and If I Can't Have You is her first novel.

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Why We Like It

  • 'So beautifully written, such a devastatingly compelling story. I can honestly say it's one of the best books I've ever read - it is without shadow of a doubt, EASILY up there with The Girl on the Train and Eleanor Oliphant' - Ruth Jones
  • 'This is superb. The main character Constance is brilliantly flawed and so compassionately drawn - it's raw and compulsive and disturbing and very well done indeed' - Harriet Tyce, author of Richard & Judy Book Club pick Blood Orange
  • 'An exceptionally raw and visceral and painfully funny novel. Charlotte Levin writes so well and so powerfully about loneliness, longing, love and loss that Constance will stay with me for a long time' - Emma Flint, Women's Prize longlisted author of Little Deaths

Charlotte Levin has been shortlisted for the Andrea Badenoch Award, part of the New Writers North Awards, and for the Mslexia Short Story Competition. Charlotte lives in Manchester and If I Can't Have You is her first novel.

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